ESCAVATING THE UNSEEN
Jun 01, 2022
Me: 'I let myself down'.
Also Me: 'And I'm picking myself up. SO RISE BIATCH. I LOVE YOU!'.
oooFH! I've been sitting with, feeling, observing, listening and seeing a lot. It's icky feelings 'doing the work'.
I did my practice this morning after honouring my descent over the last couple of days.
I wrote down all the shitty thoughts. I got them onto paper, out from running loops in my head.
I felt. I moved. I pleasured. I transmuted. I let go. I played. I laughed.
Then, I took inventory again.
After every shitty word I thought about myself, to myself, I revisited and wrote a different narrative.
And when I got to:
"I let myself down"
I re-wrote: "And I'm picking myself up. Rise Biatch, I love you!"
See. The thing is this. When I'm going down. I'm going down to mine. To excavate the shit that has buried itself within me.
I track where my feelings and thoughts take me. I observe. I allow. and it is the full spectrum of it all. Sorrow, frustration, defeat, stuckness, numbness, pissed-offness. Lots of thoughts. Lots of feelings.
It is when I have found some pieces, I dig them out. I see my past. I see my present. I see the forks in the road. I see my future.
When, and only when I have moved my energy and have travelled into a different feeling space, that I can say my new installed thoughts with conviction and belief. That I actually do truly believe these things of myself. That I re-write. I offer to my mind. I offer to my heart.
Sometimes when we excavate and polish our shit, it turns out what is actually underneath it all is a fucking diamond. And sometimes, no matter how hard we polish, we realise, it's still just that. shit.
And you just need to through that shit out!
Have you said a shitty thing to yourself, about yourself today?
Have you taken stock of the thoughts that are flying around in your head?
Do you have a practice to move through it all?
Beauty, If you don't have a practice and you feel like you are staying stuck and you want to check out mine. DM me. I'll send you the link xx
Author
Allonie Morris
Somatic Sexologist
Allonie Morris is a passionate Somatic Sexologist, Tantric Practitioner, creatress of Temple Venus and host of The Sexy, Sacred & Juicy Woman Podcast. Allonie is also a riveting speaker of eroticism and sexuality, workshop facilitator and a specialist in Erotic Embodiment.
